Mar 07 2018
This is me
I am inspired by music. I love to listen to all kinds of genres, switching from Queen to Adele to Garth Brooks in one play list.
While watching the Oscars on Sunday, one song piqued my interest. It was from The Greatest Showman, called This Is Me.
I downloaded the song (Amazon Music, I heart you) and really listened to it.
Damn.
It is now my new anthem.
Seriously, if you have not heard this song, listen to it. Now. I’ll wait.
Here’s a link to the video: Awesomeness
The lyrics are something I totally can connect with on such a deep level, especially on this crazy road I’m on with food and fitness.
The fear expressed in the beginning of how no one would love you as you are and being ashamed but then the affirmation of how others won’t break you down, you are glorious and there is a place for you, for us.
Seriously, powerful shit over here.
I totally can relate! I lived with fear and shame of myself and my body for as long as I can remember. I was different from all the other girls- I had size DD boobs when I was a freshman in high school! Forget the cute summer dresses and bikinis, I lived in t-shirts and and one pieces. In PE classes, (when I didn’t beg my parents for an excuse note) I always hid in the bathroom stalls to change.
I was afraid and ashamed.
But I’m not anymore.
Like the lyrics say, “I am brave, I am bruised, this is me…I’m not scared to be seen, this is me!”
I may be fat. I may have asthma. I may have to scale some exercises so I can do them.
But I won’t quit. I am a warrior.
This is me.
This Is Me Lyrics
Hide away, they say
‘Cause we don’t want your broken parts
I’ve learned to be ashamed of all my scars
Run away, they say
No one’ll love you as you are
I know that there’s a place for us
For we are glorious
I’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
I am brave, I am bruised
I am who I’m meant to be, this is me
Look out ’cause here I come
And I’m marching on to the beat I drum
I’m not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh
Well, fire away ’cause today, I won’t let the shame sink in
We are bursting through the barricades and
Reaching for the sun (we are warriors)
Yeah, that’s what we’ve become (yeah, that’s what we’ve become)
I know that there’s a place for us
For we are glorious
I’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
I am brave, I am bruised
I am who I’m meant to be, this is me
Look out ’cause here I come
And I’m marching on to the beat I drum
I’m not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh
This is me
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) ’cause there’s nothing I’m not worthy of
(Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh)
When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
This is brave, this is proof
This is who I’m meant to be, this is me
And I’m marching on to the beat I drum (marching on, marching, marching on)
I’m not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me
I’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
I’m gonna send a flood
Gonna drown them out
Oh
This is me