I won’t quit but I’ll cuss the whole time

I’ve been quiet on social media lately. For those of you who know me pretty well, that’s unusual. Sure, I may share the occasional link and funny photo, but usually I’m writing on my blog pretty regularly (or making a conscious effort to). Well, I’ve been hit by the depression monster. And it fucking sucks. […]

I have not weighed myself since March. Partly because I’ve been working on my relationship with the scale and partly because I plain ass forgot. Just the other day, I saw that I have been using MFP for 100 days. Consistently. That blew me away. I’m down 30 pounds. I feel better. I’m actually enjoying […]

Had a moment of panic the other day. Felt two protruding hard nodules at the bottom of my neck. After freaking out and consulting Dr. Google, I realized that these bony protrusions were my clavicles. WTF? I have clavicles? Huh. I’ve been noticing other things too. Like I’m wearing scarves around my neck. And when […]

Choose your hard. It is hard to be unhealthy. It is hard to have to make doctors appointments around a work schedule, manage medications, deal with side effects of those medications. It is hard dealing with back pain, not being able to breathe from asthma attacks, having headaches and dizziness from high blood pressure. It […]

A day late and a dollar short! So the week of 3/24 was great…until I slipped, fell and hit my head in my own damn kitchen on Thursday evening! That seriously impacted my plans for the rest of the week! Thankfully, I did not have any broken bones or concussion so all is well. Although […]

I’m late, and I apologize for that. It’s been a bit of a weird week. I wasn’t feeling well, then I was ok, then allergies kicked my ass with congestion and drainage. Ugh. I was off my regular diet, subsisting on oatmeal, bananas, saltines, and peanut butter. Three of four are carb bombs. It was […]

Sorry I’m a few days late- was feeling a bit under the weather! This week was overall decent with the exception of some food challenges in the office. Cake, cookies, brownies, and candy, oh my! I want to the gym three times, ate pretty well, and walked away from temptation. And the scale showed it! […]

One thing I am working on is not adding emotions to the scale. It used to dictate that I had a “good” or “bad” week. It’s taking time, but I’m working on it. This week was a bit challenging. There was some eating out, late nights, and not the healthiest food choices. No being carb […]

I work in a fairly large office. It is pretty busy too. Often times, people bring in sweets as a thank you gift. Personally, I think this is a sick and twisted way of saying thank you- here, elevate your blood sugar on us! I find this abundace of sweets quite challenging because I have […]

Heard this new song on the radio called “Fear is a Liar” by Zach Williams. Very powerful. It went right to my heart, gave me chills, and made me cry. It made me realize how much of my life I’ve lived in fear. Afraid of not being good enough or smart enough or pretty enough. […]